When Life Kicks Your A**, Find A Smile

Image via 123rf.com
Image via 123rf.com

I had a different post planned for today, but then my friend Chastity asked me to write up a quick quest post for her blog and it made me take a step back and think about my life for a moment.

Chastity is hostingΒ What Makes You Smile on her blog and she's inviting other authors to send in a list of 10 things that make them happy or smile. Easy, right?

Well, yeah, except life's been kicking my ass lately and I wasn't sure I could come up with anything that made me smile. But hey, I figured at the very least, it would give me a chance to reflect on those little things that I take for granted. And that's exactly what I did.

*The list was supposed to be up today, but she's an erotic romance author and all about the tease and suspense, so you've got to wait until tomorrow to read it. Don't worry, I'll have a special link just for you, but be warned, her site is 18 and older to enter. Va-va-voom!*

533806_552681448097041_1418948813_nWhat's been kicking my ass lately? Seems that back in February I caught a nasty virus that made it feel like I was on the Mad Hatter's Tea Cup ride at Disneyland 24 hours a day. So. Not. Fun. I was dizzy, nauseous, it felt like my brain was on fire, and the worst part of it all? I thought it was just a really bad hangover from the SCWC conference! True story. Then the next week I went out to dinner with my WANA sistas and I was sick for another week! I began to think I was allergic to alcohol.

It sucked. Big time.

I finally dragged myself to the doctor and then to a neurologist, got lots of tests done, had blood drawn (lots of it), found out I'm not allergic to alcohol. Yay! I just can't have any for a while. Boo!

Turns out, what's making me sick is probably a combination of the nasty virus (which made my white blood cell count sky rocket), me getting older (hooray for peri-menopause), allergies (who knew dust mites could be so vicious?), and migraines. A perfect storm of medical crap culminating in mass suckage.

I had good days ~ yay! I edited three whole chapters and made dinner.

And bad days ~ Ohmyfreakinggod, I am going to die of a super rare brain eating disease that only I have and no one will know because no one loves me and I will die alone in my old disgusting yoga pants because I haven't done laundry in a week because I suck and can't focus from this stupid fucking brain eating disease that's killing me!

*** Just so you know, I seriously doubt it's a brain eating disease.

As of today, my white blood cells are normal. I have another appointment with the neurologist in a few weeks to do a brain scan (we'll see about that brain eating disease once and for all. Huzzah!). And we'll also figure out what's going on with a few other things that are bugging me, but for now, I can focus better and I'm having more good days than bad days. Which is a win if you ask me!

Still, my brush with a possible brain eating disease and my own mortality made me realize what's really important in my life. My husband. My kids. My friends. Laughing. Oh, yes, laughing!

Last week I went to tea with my gal pal Gayle and we laughed so hard my sides ached. Some times I'll send goofy texts to my friends or they'll send me silly things that make me giggle.

I treasure those moments. My advice to you? Don't be afraid to be a goofball! Laugh at yourself. Don't waste another second on someone that doesn't make you smile. You deserve better. Laugh often and with much gusto.


40 thoughts on “When Life Kicks Your A**, Find A Smile”

  1. Gayle CarlineGayle Carline

    Here’s what you should know above all else from me – I LOVE laughing with you!!! Yes, I’ll use more than one exclamation point, dammit. I love that we say something that makes one of us laugh and then the other one starts laughing and soon we’re just laughing at the fact that we’re laughing. It’s like that scene in Mary Poppins – I expect to be on the ceiling after a while! Keep laughing, and keep getting better (health wise… in other respects, you’re perfect). If need be, I’ll text/call/message you once a day just to say or do something goofballish and make you laugh. Doctors orders, right?

  2. Amber WestAmber West

    The biggest of big hugs! I get this more than you know.

    Here’s hoping there’s a lot of laughter coming your way. (Perhaps I need to write something funny on the blog soon, just for you! πŸ˜‰ )

  3. Elena AitkenElena Aitken

    Oh buddy, I’m so sorry you’re so under the weather.
    I get it…some days you just need to laugh and I’m with ya that friends who can make you laugh are worth their weight in gold!!

    Keep smiling, darlin’ and rest up!
    Atlanta is coming…

  4. Rebekah LoperRebekah Loper

    I know all about major life suckage, I’m just sadly not at liberty to broadcast what’s going on (since it’s my family, and not me, being directly affected). So, I feel you!

    There’s always a laugh to be found, though, even in the most depressing situations.

  5. Ginger CalemGinger Calem

    Well dang, I hate that you’ve been so sick. Not good! And I’m so glad you’re not allergic to alcohol. I mean, that would really suck. πŸ˜‰ Keep feeling better and keep laughing!

  6. Nancy JNancy J

    Tameri, I feel your frustrations, but you’re onto something by concentrating on the things that are important. It actually sounds a lot like my DH this past year, starting with a sprained finger, culminating in a nasty virus, with lots of ‘bad luck’ in between. Keep your fingers crossed we’re on the uphill swing. So yes, I feel your frustrations and I’m sending lots of good vibes your way. Kudos for taking them one step at a time.

  7. sheridegrom - From the literary and legislative trenches.sheridegrom - From the literary and legislative trenches.

    Tameri – I’d tell you to hang in there but sometimes it’s all we can do to hang on, or at least that’s what I’ve discovered since Oct. Yep, you are so right, it sucks big time. One of the greatest gifts I’ve received while I’ve been more or less down and out is the friends that have stopped by and we get into those silly conversations where we laugh. It doesn’t matter the subject or that the house isn’t spotless or that I haven’t felt like putting on my make-up or heaven forbid, some days I haven’t had a shower (I’ve been too dizzy and nauseous), the friendship and laughter is genuine. Take baby steps in getting to the bottom of what is going on in your body and listen to it. My laundry room has crawled into the hallway more than once since this last surgery and I discovered it wasn’t the end of the world. Who would have thought?

  8. David N. WalkerDavid N. Walker

    If I’d said something about having a brain-eating disease, someone undoubtedly would have said it’s too late – the disease would die of malnutrition. Anyhow, I hope you’re all better now.

  9. susielindaususielindau

    I hope you kick that brain-eating disease’s ass soon!
    In the meantime, it sounds like your funny bone hasn’t been affected and that is a very good thing!

  10. Coleen PatrickColeen Patrick

    Every time I read your posts I think, are we related? Maybe knew each other from another time? That brain eating thing infiltrated my world too. So sorry you are dealing with it! I hope all goes well with your scan. Last week I posted about trying to stay positive–and said I was combating the pessimism via taking a photo of something that made me smile each day and posting on Instagram (or Twitter/FB). And laughter is good, the best medicine imo. πŸ™‚ HUGS!

  11. EmmaEmma

    Sorry to hear you haven’t been feeling the best. Tameri, I always picture you as a smiling, happy woman. Your posts are always cheerful, your words always kind.
    And thank God you’re not allergic to alcohol. That would have been terrible. πŸ™‚ I’m smiling, but really relieved for you.
    I’m going for afternoon tea in London this coming week – my first time πŸ˜‰

  12. Melinda VanLoneMelinda VanLone

    Awww, Tameri! I had no idea you were feeling so horrible! I mean, I knew you had a virus or whatnot but didn’t know it lingered forever and sucked your brain cells out! *shudder* You always make me giggle, even when you aren’t feeling well. {{HUGS}}

    And you even tried to cheer ME up! In the middle of a brain eating disease. You are the WOMAN, hear you roar!

    Seriously hope it all gets sorted out soon and you have ALL shiny, good days.

  13. brickhousechickbrickhousechick

    Laughter is what keeps ME going and coping with my medical struggles! Hang in there!

  14. Gloria Richard AuthorGloria Richard Author

    So glad someone finally granted permission to be a goofball, Tameri.

    It’s been exhausting to appear normal and sane and staid in blog comments.

    I know it’s no laughing matter — this brain sucking disease you have — but, your humor shined in your description. It’s exactly the type of over-the-top conversation I like to invent with my besties when life is kicking my ass.

    Get well! I feel a good blog-jacking coming on, and I need a posse of blog-jack buddies. You’re always game-on for those when you’re on your game.

  15. jansenschmidtjansenschmidt

    Sounds like you might have what I have – Menierre’s Disease. I was the same way after I got off a cruise ship. I felt hung over, dizzy, double vision, nauseas, vertigo. All I could do was lay in bed and stare at the ceiling. Any movement of my head started the room spinning. I thought I hadn’t gotten my land legs back yet. But after a couple of weeks, I had a brain MRI and was tested for MS. Turns out, it was Menierre’s Disease. Might not hurt to explore that a little. It’s an easy fix. Now, I take medicine (sea sick medicine of all things) a couple of times a week and only have symptoms on occasion. The first episode is the worst. I have to avoid any spinny kind of rides or dance movements, but I am so much better now.

    But, I’m not a doctor, so don’t take my word for it (obviously), but, seriously, check into it.

    I love being a goofball. It makes my husband crazy when I do silly stuff in public, but I so don’t care.

    I hope you get to feeling better soon so you can get back to being goofy.

    Patricia Rickrode
    w/a Jansen Schmidt

  16. Louisa BacioLouisa Bacio

    Brain-eating disease? Oh good gracious no! You are much too lovable and vivacious. Thanks for making me — and others — laugh in the midst of your own personal health issues. So yes, I’m gonna have to come back tomorrow. Thanks for the TEASE!

  17. Kate WoodKate Wood

    YAY! I’m so excited we can drink together again!

    LOL…like how that’s all I took from that?? ;p

    Well, now I know why I haven’t been receiving any inappropriate texts lately. I should really start thinking of my own and send them to you.

    On a serious note, not sure if I shared this with you before, but I can relate exactly to how you’ve been feeling about mortality and not knowing what the hell is going on with your body. In August of 2009, on a Friday – after 5pm – I got a call from my doctor with results from a chest x-ray. She left a message saying they’d found masses (as in plural) in my lungs, and I’d have to go in for more testing.

    Yeah. Spent the whole weekend thinking I was dying of lung cancer and wouldn’t get to see either of my girls grow up, walk down the aisle, hold my grandbabies. I still tear up when I think of it. Maddie was only a little over a year, then.

    Turns out I have a very common but little understood auto-immune disease. I’ll live, and most likely quite normally – though I have ups and downs. But the point of all of this is that I totally get you. And I know that like me, this will turn out to be no big deal and you will over come it.

    Tameri, you are one of the strongest, smartest, most wonderful women I’ve ever had the pleasure and fortune to meet and get to know. I truly love you and am always here for you.

    Now text me about farting, damn it!


  18. Kristy K. James...Where Romance and Fantasy CollideKristy K. James...Where Romance and Fantasy Collide

    You had best make sure you let us know how the scan turns out, lady. I’m glad you’re feeling better. Stay that way. “Don’t waste another second on someone that doesn’t make you smile.” Love it. Needed to hear it. πŸ™‚

  19. August McLaughlinAugust McLaughlin

    “Dont’ be afraid to be a goofball.” Yes! Great medicine, that goofiness can be. πŸ™‚ Thanks for the inspiring post, Tameri. So sorry the globitis bug caught you, too! Behind us all, SOON.

  20. Debra KristiDebra Kristi

    I’m so glad that Gayle was there to take you out and make you laugh when you were feeling down. I hate that you were feeling so yucky. πŸ™ No brain eating diseases. You have the good karma. You will get better than that. For sure! You have a beautiful way of taking your situation and finding the bright side. See why you’re soo amazing? Hugs!!!

Leave a Comment

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.